gidgeybelle ♥

29th October 2011

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“Next time, I’ll be braver.”

I know it may sound ridiculously ridiculous, but I am so proud of myself. I never thought I would reach this feeling as fast as I did. In one day, I was let down and blown off. And in that same day, I picked myself up without self-pity. Didn’t run back or shell out my dignity. I made a bee-line out of all that’s undeserving.

I showed an obvious sign of weakness, and it backfired. I scolded myself for thinking an outcome I already knew of would be different another time around. But going down the same route in hopes for a change is like touching fire, and hoping it won’t burn you. Lesson learned.

There is nobody next in line, nor no ready rebound, but I am completely fine. When you are told you deserve better, you can hear it over, and over, and over again, and it won’t do anything for you. But the day you finally realize it yourself, nothing can move you faster than THAT realization alone. I’m almost stunned to feel no pain at all, not even a pinch, but I am in the best possible place I can be in right now—

ever since the day I said goodbye to your turning tables.